First off im going to start of with my best friend in the whole wide world. I dont think anyone will take her place. dude, chick, husband, wife; we got that understanding. (: Becca and I met back in 05, 06 I wanna say. We've been chill ever since. Learning more about each other everyday. Shes one of the most beautiful people in the world mmmmhm! Cant tell her that though. =_= Do you like fishsticks? haha uh, pretty much me an brink Chill, listen to music, laugh, and drink Hawaiian punch. Its love (:
Alright now to all the sticky stuff. My love life. Now a lot of people will call it complicated, call it irrelevant, but it got me here you know. I learned a lot in a short period of time because of these three chicks. It was like damn I never thought that someone could take my heart an make me feel the way these people did. Its only right that I start off with the first love.
Deep breathe.
I think about her everyday still haha but thats normal! dont hate. I broke someones heart and she didnt deserve it. I think thats worse thats the worse feeling in the world. And realizing puts so much weight on your shoulders to want to make it better that when you can it just drains. I hate saying that we all hurt someone sometime an they get better and leave an you will always feel bad about it you know. this is that. but worse. I was with Jess, like I had to work for jess yo. I met her on her 17th birthday actually I was 18 an I wrote her on myspace (get use to it lol) happy birthday but we didnt get together nor meet until May. We Met may 10th and was together two days later. (Dusts off shoulder lol jk) But she made me get to know her. She got to know me. We became friends. I remember the first time she told me she loved me. I was at this GIRL name tylers house (lol EX shorty at the time) an jess called an she just said it I was like damn. That was real. I was hooked. I dropped everything Every girl I was talking to at the time for that. Someone didnt like that to much..
Now playing Unordinary Love Song - J lyrikal
A couple months before I met jess I was with >>> KT an we were goin through some problems you see she would constantly lie to me about the dumbest things and some took months, yrs for her to even fess up and I hated it. I couldnt stand it. so when she wanted me to hold her close all i did was push her away. I had no choice. My past taught me better than that. But off and on for the next 9 months kt would come back into my life and we'd talk and I Sergio Montrelle Rush made the biggest mistake of all and cheated. YUP. I was with Jess an she didnt do anything to deserve it and I feel sorry for it more and more each day. (Thats just how it goes you know) I messed up and I messed up bad, and I tried to hide it. that stuff always comes out though. I hurt her. I hurt katie. I hurt them both. Id pay soon.
Now Playing Intruder Alert - Lupe Fiasco
Love lead me here. To her. Julia, (: And I know what yall thinkin ' Damn all them white girls bout time this brother got some color' haha just kiddddin. Julia came around when life wasnt life. I was stuck and I had no wiggle room what so ever.an you know she tried pullin me out for a while. she tried running for help but when she realized that stuff didnt work, when the rest would usually give up. She just sat there with me. she sat there and waited for me to help myself. Then when I was ready we got up together. I was always wanting to start to walk and take life with her but I think thats all life was for, for me and her because thats just what some people are to you. And no matter how hard it is to realize it you cant do much about it. You cant do anything about it. I loved julia till it hurt, A year past it hurting so much that i dug that hole again, but I remembered everything she taught me and I still got out myself. Now I just gotta walk by myself until whatever nexts happens. I wish she was around. I wish I could still feel her some days but thats normal. I wish she still cared.
Anyyyyway. As for me. I am one single brotha lookin for love in all the wrong places haha. Luckily I have my babygirl HIPHOP who mends all the wounds. With a little help from Bob marley of course. Who i think could spit if u asked him. haha Shout out to bob.
Anyway waht does this have to do with my music? Well you ask. 75% of my stuff is about the stuff that i learned from these girls put into lessons that maybe you would need for yourself? idk. girls are a big part of my life. I love them (: They are beautiful and if you put me behind a mouse and a keyboard, ill tell them all dayyyy long haha.
ONELOVE;ONEHEART
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