Ish is real!

No mattter how old you are i learned that you struggle. And thats the crappy thing about it. You can be the best person you can be living the best life, but something will always put you out of your misery. Something will always derail you

I like to think of my mom as a super hero man. all the things she does for Morten and I, and ive never seen her sweat. I dont think ive ever really seen her happy either. Thats why I like being her son. I feel that someday I can make her happy.

(PIC FROM 06')


Man, Family is a bond that people shouldnt mess with you know. Thats love in its purest form and finding something like that OUTSIDE of family is what i think life is all about. I mean coming into this think about it, What a good mission it would be to KNOW that your gonna have to spend an average to 25 yrs to find the person your meant to venture off into this world with. Thats why I second guess myself a lot. Im only 20 and I know what I want and I see it in front of me its just I know I cant go at it alone when I say "hey guys look follow me" no one knows. No one believes.


Ive been out of BK for 11 years now, an the problems from there are still in my life everyday. But No one feels it. They say im covered up by bein this "white boy" who doesnt know what its like to be a black person. haha. I get so upset at myself for letting that get to me. Why cant people just accept that no matter the color of the skin, i should be able to dress how i want, listen to want i want, be who i am, and love how i fuckin love. Dont try to think for me. Im tired of that.


For the first time ever im scared to be sergio rush because sergio rush actually has someone to be now. Not for anyone else, but for himself. i tried living my life for so many people through so many peoples eyes, but i got tired. I got so tired of being unappreciated i had to let go. now all i wanna do is tell stories. REALLY good stories. I wanna tell my story. I want to continue to make my story and I want A LOT of people to come with me along the way. I dunno what it feels like to count on someone.



I guess this blog was to give you more of a feel of who I am. I dont know. In school im majoring in creativing writing so i wanna keep my skills on point over summer haha EVEN THOUGH ILL STILL BE GOING >:| but EDUCATION IS KEY!


Ill drop a few bars..

Lookin' out the window I see the birds chirpin'
Wonderin to myself do they ever feel hurtin
Not the physical pain the type thats in the heart
the type that will make you go crazy and tear your wings all apart
God dont like ugly thats what mom always said
GET UP BOY AND DONT FORGET TO MAKE YOURE BED
I laugh now but ill never forget those words
Just like ill dream of life bein a pain free bird.


ONELOVE;ONEHEART